I am an awkward person.
I am not always sure how to interact with people. I recognize I am not the best roommate. But the fact that I am socially awkward leads to me getting “bullied” in the apartment.
I feel like a group of people who live together always pick one person to kind of target. They blame everything on the odd person out. And it is always me…
Which leads me to spending hardly any time in my apartment. Because I don’t feel like I am even slightly welcome there. Because in reality… I am not really welcome there. They don’t want me around.
It has happened every year so far.
And now I basically spend all my free time in my boyfriend’s apartment. Which isn’t fair to his roommates. I sleep in his room almost every night.
I have had my boyfriend ask his roommates multiple times if they mind. He says they say they don’t give a shit. But it bothers me. A lot. Maybe boys are just a little more chill…
But basically, I don’t have friends. I start the year off friends with my roommates but through me kind of sucking as a human and them taking advantage of that… we fall apart. It’s no one’s fault and both parties fault’s… if that makes sense.
And I honestly feel like shit. I feel like I am being bullied all the time.
I just want school to be over.